TTC Cycle day 29

So today is test day, which means that I was supposed to get my period yesterday. All day yesterday I felt like my period was coming, well let me be more specific by saying that I got the cramps that I get before the really bad cramps come on. Because of my endo when I really cramp they are unbearable. But these ones were more like the cramps I get that are just uncomfortable (the ones I get that let me know that the worst is yet to come). The thing is they didn't get any worse (or better for that matter). So here I am today a whole day late and I still have the cramps...and now I have brown spotting. My cervix which I normally don't check is super low.

I really thought that I was pregnant this cycle until a few days ago when I felt like I lost my symptoms. Yes my breasts were still tender but nowhere near the same extent and the bloating deflated, not all the way, but enough to notice. I don't really have any hope left for this cycle. I haven't tested today as I have been testing since cycle day 23 and have been getting BFN's (Big Fat Negatives). So with the spotting this morning if I don't get my period in a couple of days I'll test again then. But I don't think I'm going to make it until then :(

I'm super depressed today and I think it's because Christmas is right around the corner. I was really hoping that we would be able to share some exciting news with our families and now it doesn't look like that is going to happen. I'm hanging onto a sliver of hope right now. I have heard of cramping and spotting in early pregnancy but I haven't heard of cramping, spotting, low temperatures, and a low cervix with a good outcome.

Keep your fingers crossed for me.

Week 6

So for the past week I have been battling with some symptoms...I wasn't sure if they were all in my head because lets face it I want to be pregnant so bad I could turn almost anything into a pregnancy symptom, but after looking at my measurements for the week it would make sense that I would have breast pain (starting two days past ovulation) and cramping and bloating. I mean from last week my boobs have expanded an inch and a half and my waist three whole effing inches. That's a whole inch larger than I started with 6 weeks ago. Sure that's not the only places I've gained this week but they are the biggest changes. I swear I've been sticking to my diet. I noted that last week I woke up starving but I didn't eat anymore than I was in previous weeks I just ate sooner. This is so frustrating. Another thing that has been bothering me lately is my back. And why wouldn't it. Now that my lady friends are spilling out of my bras it is only logical that my back would hurt. Ummmm what else. Oh (TMI) I have cervical mucus everyday since a few days before ovulation. Normally the only time I have CM is right before I ovulate for a couple of days and a couple of days before Aunt Flow comes. I have also had varying degrees of cramping. I'm trying not to get my hopes up, but it would be the best Christmas present ever! I am going to wait five more days until I test. Wish me luck and baby dust :)

Measurements:
Weight 196 lbs -6 lbs
Arm (L) 13 (R) 13
Neck 14
Bust 41.5-.5
Chest 34 -1
Waist 43 +1
Hips 46.5 -.5
Thigh (L) 24.5 -1 (R) 24 -1.5

Week 5

So for the past week or so I've been waking up STARVING. Like I need to eat before I do anything else, including my morning washroom break. I hope this means that my body's metabolisim is improving. As of December 1st I've started to workout as well to help things along. My BBF burnt a workout DVD which only takes 20 minutes a day to complete. So I have no excuse to not workout! I'm really excited to see that all of my measurements have now had a loss. It's amazing what can happen when you eat right.

Measurements:
Weight 194 lbs -8 lbs
Arm (L) 13 -.5 (R) 13 - .5
Neck 13.5 -.5
Bust 40 -2
Chest 33.5 -1.5
Waist 40 -1.5
Hips 46 -1
Thigh (L) 24.5 -1 (R) 24.5 -1

TTC Cycle day 17

So a few days ago I went to my follow up Doctor's appointment to get the results from a bunch of tests I've had done over the past couple of months. Unfortunately, it looks as though I have endometriosis information about it found here: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Endometriosis . So my Doctor informed me that I have three options. The first one would be where I would go on birth control as the hormones that I would be feeding my body would stop my period altogether, thus equalling no more pain - no more endo. For obvious reasons I did not want to do this. I mean we are trying to have a baby here. The second option is to have surgery to remove the endo. It's a non-invasive day procedure where she would make a couple of incisions on my lower abdomen and laser off the cysts and whatnot. The third option would be to get pregnant. She (my dr.) said her wait times for surgery right now are a year long wait. However, she thinks that I have a severe case of endo so she has put me on her priority/cancellation list. I will be called with a surgery date within the next three months. So what does this mean? Well I have three months to get pregnant. YIKES. I am trying not to stress out over it. But I know these things can take time. It's hard not to constantly think of it, when I already wanted to get pregnant for so long already let alone having to accomplish it in a controlled time frame. The good news is at least I don't have to be in pain for another full year (if we don't get pregnant before then) and that my other test results came back with flying colours. My dr. is encouraged that it is possible to achieve the pregnancy before having to go ahead with surgery. So keep your fingers crossed for us.

By looking at my fertility chart, I'm pretty sure I ovulated yesterday. Hopefully in a couple of weeks time I'll have a really great update to share!